Monday, June 16, 2014

Pregnancy and Strawberries

It's been pretty quiet around here lately and I can't believe I'm nearly half way through my pregnancy. I'm just going to say it but I make a terrible pregnant lady. Pregnancy at least for me isn't fun or easy. I thought the 2nd time around would be a lot easier than the first but nope I was wrong. Between still having all day sickness and looking after Nora it has been extremely challenging to just take care of me or even find time to just catch my breath.

Making art or any ounce of creative energy has been thrown out the window and I miss it terribly. The hardest thing about being pregnant again is the part that you just aren't yourself or at least your former self. I know life is all about changes but being pregnant I feel like I'm on my own planet. Pregnancy is just temporary but I can't wait for it to be over.

I've been out visiting my parent's quite a bit lately because the only place I really want to be is with my mother. She helps with Nora, the pugs and best of all she makes me BLT sandwiches all day long. Can you tell I have been craving bacon? Since my parents live a few hours away, I took a little vacation out to see them and it's exactly what I needed. I was able recharge my batteries and take a minute to stop and smell the crisp fresh ocean air since they live out on the coast.

I want to make art but it's just really hard right now, I just can't describe it.  I think when your pregnant your body has so many things going on chemically that it's hard to tap into that creative place.  Tim keeps telling me that I need to allow growth into something else but I really love painting. Maybe I need to think of it as not abandoning painting but seeing what happens.

Since summer is happening my parents have the most beautiful and lush garden. It also happens to be strawberry season! Nora loves digging out those sweet juicy little red berries and so do the pugs. I caught Winston the pug climbing over the garden box and getting his big old belly stuck as he hung on the edge while gobbling up strawberries.  It still makes me smile just thinking about it because he always acts like he is starving. oh pugs!  I really want to make some jam soon... maybe it's a sign of some sort of creative things waiting to come out. I have been enjoying shooting photos again and been feeling the need for at least small adventures.

20 comments:

Maywyn Studio said...

Prayers you feel better more often than not. Meditation and a dim room with a cold cloth on my forehead helped me back in the day.
Beautiful garden and photographs.

Tori said...

Hope your pregnancy starts to get better. Maybe you'll discover some new talents when your away from painting!

Jane {In The Pink & Green} said...

Sorry to hear that things have been a little rough, hopefully the second half goes a little more smoothly for you...nice you could spend time w/ your family though! And I hear you on the strawberries, I just bought a bunch at the farmer's market, they are SO GOOD right now!

To The River said...

I ve been away four months from blogger and I found the biggest change on ur blog:) Congrats on ur pregnancy!:)xx

Juju at Tales of Whimsy.com said...

I love this post. I'm going to email you my response.

Welcome back.

I've missed you. I know we haven't been friends long but I've been wondering about you. :)

A Belle Abroad said...

I'm sorry to hear that you're having a tough go with baby number two but I'm glad that your mom is so close and that you have her to help you out. Hang in there!

Rach @ This Italian Family said...

I've never been pregnant before, but I had a sister who was sick all through her pregnancies so I know second-hand how miserable that is. I'm so glad your mom is able to take care of things for you a little. Enjoy those BLTs!

OrangeMew said...

Taking great photos counts to me as making art!

Crystal said...

You should definitely see it as not giving up on painting but allowing for other things to happen until you're able to paint again. :) I hope the pregnancy becomes easier for you soon.

Krugthethinker said...

Congratulations on reaching the halfway point! I can so relate--I was sick as a dog until maybe...16-17 weeks? I also thought the hardest part of it was not having the strength and energy to create things. It's something that makes me feel like myself, and I was adrift without it. I also felt like it would never end! But it will! I am so glad you have your mom to help, and I think any little thing you have the energy to do should be counted as a creative act:) I so hope you are feeling better soon!

rooth said...

Take it easy and no need to force the creative juices right now - there will be plenty later and just focus on you and your growing family. Aren't moms such a comfort?

Jacy Pulford said...

Aww I totally understand! You are not alone. Though I'm not pregnant again (yet) it is hard to balance creative passion and life. I feel the same way about painting but it doesn't have to define you. You're changing and what you create will change too. As long as you find joy doing it, that's what counts xo

Hildi said...

Hang in there I am sure the creativity will hit you with full force when you don't expect it. Right now you are busy creating and developing a brand new person, no wonder you don't feel like doing much else. X

Nina Robinson said...

I know how you feel, all my creative energy went out the window when I was pregnant. I used to love writing, or at least journaling, and it's like my brain couldn't put two words together once I got pregnant. Pregnancy brain is definitely a real thing.

The Joni Journey

Nina Robinson said...

I know how you feel, all my creative energy went out the window when I was pregnant. I used to love writing, or at least journaling, and it's like my brain couldn't put two words together once I got pregnant. Pregnancy brain is definitely a real thing.

The Joni Journey

Nina Robinson said...

I know how you feel, all my creative energy went out the window when I was pregnant. I used to love writing, or at least journaling, and it's like my brain couldn't put two words together once I got pregnant. Pregnancy brain is definitely a real thing.

The Joni Journey

Katrina Sophia said...

hope your pregnancy get more enjoyable eventually. you will get a grasp of your creativity soon enough, it wil just come out naturally!

Katrina Sophia Blog

http://evaetsandra.com/ said...

I'm glad you are back! I think pregnancy is a time of the womens'life very important; maybe now you will get better! I think you must continuing with artist paint, it is a pity if you left, maybe when your baby will be here you are going to starting again! Take care of you!

Christine D. | The Plumed Nest said...

i get it. i was the meanest pregnant person ever. not to everyone and not always in general, but i had my targets and my streaks. and i'd know in the moment, i'd tell myself "you are not angry! why do you feel so angry? stop feeling angry!" but i couldn't.

when i was pregnant with my twins i also wanted to watch bear grylls all the time and sleep on the floor of my sons room and eat grocery store chicken wings and play stupid computer games like bejeweled, for hours. i also had people i wanted to be around all the time. it was like around them i felt kind of safe and normal - my son was one of them, which is why i slept on his bedroom floor. hormones they are insane!!! halfway there! yay!! xo

Moongirl said...

I remember my second pregnancy as a completely different experience than my first. I was exhausted being pregnant, the demand on my body plus looking after a 1 year old. I did not get back into art until years later. I focused on raising two small ones and the joys and challenges. When I finally got a chance to make art again it was amazing. It will come back in time. Taking photos, recording the time spent with images definitely counts as art. So nice you have someone not too far away who can give a helping hand. <3